And

all this time i have been

wondering how it might have been when

things happened so differently than

what is actually going on today and

it seems like a broken record when

i play it over and over again but

caring about that is nothing compared to

what i originally felt before and

now i am simply overwhelmed by

this nagging feeling of regret but

i'm trying to steer clear of

that pit because i might drown and

what could have been was

what i want to have right now but

that may be hard because of

this fear emanating from within and

this half-empty core seems emptier than

ever when i think about it but

a dose of you day by day is

a refreshing drink that fills my cup and

all i want now is a chance to

redeem myself in several ways but

the shocking truth that stings is that

i cannot do this on my own.

04/17-19/2013