crush.

I am currently infatuated with one person right now.

I know. It's crazy, me being too old to have this kind of feeling. But I just can't help it. I'm just like this because I know for a fact that nothing could possibly happen to us, except developing from being acquaintances to being friends. That's it.

Me and a good friend of mine have called him "Baby Ruth", to eliminate the risk of others finding out about this "event". Just to describe a little about him, he's a tall-enough, silent-type of guy, has nice eyes, and he's just...I don't know...gorgeous. I just smile when I think about him.

I first met him during one of the training sessions with my team. Yes, there he was with his colleagues, innocent enough to join our little class, not knowing even for a second what would happen to me. I sound like a high-schooler!

Indeed, I feel like I'm back in high school. That feeling when he's there, you tend to avoid him, when he looks at you, you look away, embarrassed. I'm back to being a kid again. It's crazy!

Well, during those first few days, I just felt the attraction towards him seeping inside me. Being a demure type of person, I try to ignore the feeling. But it doesn't help if he keeps on staring at you too. Yes, I did not imagine it. He did.

This has been happening for the past 2-3 months. The feeling just escalated when the breakup happened. He's just always there, lurking at the sidelines. When I glance at him, there he is, staring at me, then looking away after finding out he's been caught.

Maybe he feels the same way, I don't know. But nothing must happen to us.

Nothing.

God help me.